In my last entry, I talked about the beginning of my spiritual awakening, and I touched upon why I changed my opinion from not knowing if God existed to believing in him 100%.
In this entry, I want to explain how I arrived at the conclusion that God exists. My decision was surprisingly based mostly on logic, but, of course, partially based on faith.
A few months after my unexpected reading with medium, Lisa Williams, and my mom's spirit, I attended a weekend spiritual retreat held by Williams and her meditation guru in the beautiful town of Ojai, California. The main reason I went was because Williams was going to be doing more readings. Other than that, I didn't quite know what a spiritual retreat was. For a change, I'd made a spontaneous decision to follow my heart and go ... or possibly it was guidance, and I didn't realize it at the time.
Anyway, it was a magical event with lots of like-minded people who I instantly felt connections with. The event was held at a picturesque and serene venue amid nature, and the energy was peaceful yet invigorating. During our two days there, Williams discussed how mediumship works and did quite a few readings, but we also did a lot of meditations. It was the first time I really set my ego aside and dove head first into finding that deeper connection within myself and to spirit.
During one of those meditations, I saw my dad who had been dead for nearly 35 years! I can still remember the feeling to this day. I felt that I was in his presence ... truly reunited with him. It was so emotional that I had tears slowly streaming down my face. I could hear attendees sniffling or softly weeping, but I didn't let that distract me. I was "in the zone." I had never experienced a meditation like that before! When we were brought out of the meditation, I felt peaceful, comforted, and happy.
Something else happened at that spiritual retreat that changed the whole direction of my life, and although I didn't know it at the time, had steered me toward my life purpose. I met two sisters who told me about "angel numbers." I'd never heard of such a thing! They went on to tell me about repetitive number sequences such as the 11:11 you might see on a clock or 444 on a license plate, address, or phone number. I was fascinated and wanted to know everything there was to know about "angel numbers."
When I returned home from the retreat, I started to research the topic and came across the name, Doreen Virtue, who had written many books on angels and "angel numbers." I bought two of her books, "Healing With the Angels" which is a great overview with prayers, and "Angel Numbers 101" which provides the meanings of numbers 1 through 999.
Not long after I had read the books, I started noticing "angel numbers" everywhere on my long commutes to and from work, so I decided to keep "Angel Numbers 101" in my car, and I would write the dates when I saw the respective numbers on the applicable pages of the book. After a while, the book ended up falling apart from overuse! LOL That's when I decided to start using journals. When you start to see the numbers and acknowledge them, you'll be shown more, and more! It's an amazing way to receive angelic guidance!
In addition to the book, "Angel Numbers 101," there's now an app for your smart phone which is a handy way to look up numbers on the go. Another wonderful reference for "angel numbers" is Joanne Walmsley's blog, http://sacredscribes.angelnumbers.blogspot.com.
Now ... back to why I decided to believe in God. Like I said earlier, it was partially a logical conclusion for me. Since I had become a believer in angels after seeing my life dramatically improve by following their guidance, and given the fact that the name angel literally means "messenger of God," it only made sense to believe in God. Not to mention, God has his very own number which is 0, which represents a circle without a beginning or end ... infinite.
With love, light, and angel blessings,